From my inbox comes this message:
While it’s often fashionable to dwell upon what might have been, Rochelle, what’s usually overlooked is that really and truly, it couldn’t have.
Because, invariably, any romanticized versions of how things “might have been,” are based upon fictionalized versions of the past.
Un-hun,
The Universe
You see, Rochelle, most of the time when people think the present could have been different than it is, it’s because they think the past was different than it was. Happily, the future can still be anything, when you surrender to the details (and who has to do what).Things have been tough for a lot of people, I know , and in the wake of walking through my spiritual path I encounter doubt. A lot.
How does this manifestation thingy really work? Why am I still struggling? These thoughts and fears plagued me for about a month. My doldrums even kept my friends from coming back around for a bit. It was strange to feel that dark and cold place again, I mean at first it was odd because it was unfamiliar. Later I realized that I had lived in this shadowy place of self-doubt for so long that it became comfortable. That is when the manifestations poured in:
the car broke down, fuel pump again
Mechanic refused to fix the part which is only 10 months old (12 mo manufactures warranty)
Eviction notice on my door
some of my closest friends no longer talking to me
feeling lonely
Called my father for help and was told they had too much to pay for after helping my younger sister and brother.I sank, and cried, every time a door slammed in my face I felt this odd feeling. It was peace, a sense of peace was radiating through me and it didn’t stop.
In two weeks I began to notice that I created the feelings, fears and the doubts. The peace I was feeling reminded me that the only source I am to truly count on is God, the Universe or whatever you want to call the power that isn’t human.
Lean in, Rochelle, Lean in to the Universe…
So I applied for some scholarships, then hit the goldmine ….Sweepland NPDOR panelists.
I do surveys about 3 a week and receive points, the points take me to 5 money scholarships and 10 prize scholarships… In other words I take a survey and NPDOR gives me entries into as many of their scholarships I want.
Last week?
I had 876 entries in over 13 scholarships and prizes.
Yesterday I left work in 2nd place for my scholarship video.
Last week My boss suggested I ask the honors department for compensation to run their Facebook Page
They said yes.
Now? I am still at peace and revelling in the glory of the universe. My friend bought the part needed to fix my car and it will be done this weekend.Changing the world, truly is as simple as changing your mind.
